I never took any treatment so I don’t know for sure, but I believe that I have had depression episodes when I was a teen. I’m 18 now, and past two years of my life were pretty great overall. It got better since I met someone very special to me, and I believe that getting out of puberty and becoming my own confident person helped too.
But past several months I noticed something weird. Almost every month there are 2-5 days that I’m feeling like shit. Without any reason. I literally can lie on a bed all day thinking that there’s no any meaning in living life. It’s not like I want to kill myself or anything. I just don’t want to do anything. Don’t wanna live. Don’t wanna die. Don’t wanna exist.
Usually it goes away after a couple of days and I’m back to normal. Living and appreciating my life. Because I genuinely love life. But when these depressing days come, it’s like I’m not myself. Like I’m suddenly forgetting all the good things life offers me. And even if I remember, I don’t care about them at all.
What’s that about? What should I do?