I’ve dealt with mental health my whole life (24f). And it only has gotten worse. Probably cause I wasn’t able to seek out help until about 4 years ago. I have always seen or heard things, but it’s just been getting worse. I moved a week ago into a really old house. I’m convinced it’s haunted. But if I tell my psychiatrist tomorrow everything I’ve heard and seen this last week, especially with how bad my MDD and anxiety/panic disorder. I’m afraid she’s going to make me go to the hospital again. And I don’t know if I can do that financially. I’ve barely been able to hold a job down all year. Not only am I flat broke, I’m in so much debt I can’t even hardly eat. I keep cutting, not enough to even bleed. But I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t stop thinking about suicide. My new house has so many perfect areas I could do it. I’m just feeling so fucking lost again. And I don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow at the psychiatrist. I’m scared.