Someone had traumatized me mentally and emotionally. I had trust issues before and I wall up my personality, and never depend I decided to let my guard down for once in my life and this person ended up fo be treacherous and cunning and malicious as he masked, a lot of time, Hope, risk went down the drain and ugly words were said.
This is exactly what I wanted to avoid,
I was then forced to revaluate my whole perspective on everything, I could only blame myself for letting someone in. I stopped eating and sleeping for a while, and was ruminating.
I’ve been plagued by spiteful thoughts daily and it has progressed into worst, it’s an itch I cannot scratch my thoughts have been sadistic and impulsive I really want to go hurt this person I’m in intense distress because I know I can’t do it and my life will truly be ruined, he’s hurt so many people I have no empathy for him I would be doing everyone a favor, my thoughts are very sadistic and if I were to do it I would not regret doing so.
I’m really distressed tonight, there’s nothing more that I want than to hurt this person I’m thinking of admitting myself to the hospital
What would happen if I tell them this, I know I would get locked away that’s fairly obvious, but would anything legal happen? Would he be notified, would I be put on a watch list post hospital stay? How long would I stay? Do people that have homicidal ideation stay longer?