They always say to reach out. It should be easy. I have friends. I know they care. I know they would listen and be there for me.
But I can’t. Sometimes stops me. I think about telling anyone where I’m at in my head and I immediately shut down.
Half of me says, “you’re fine. Dont make this into a big thing. You don’t need to cause a scene over it.” While another part of me thinks, “maybe it would be best to just overdose on something.”
I dont want to worry anyone. I dont want them to know.