We often have small fights, nothing big, but to her she has to take that next step to feel powerful. (She mentions how she always wants to be the more powerful dominant person in her life. She has some god complex.) I’ve been a depressed person for years, I’ve attempted multiple times, and she uses that every time she argues with me. She says things to push me to the edge, that the world will be better without me, that no one can stand me. she often mentions my last attempt, they heard me choking in the next room but my sisters didn’t want to get up or talk to me, when they found me, she didn’t touch me, my other sister and the paramedics were the only people to lay a hand on me. Yet she calls herself my hero. Tells me “I should’ve left you to choke.”. I know sisters can be mean, I know they can say things they don’t mean, trust me, I have 7 more. This one is the only one to go the extra mile for no reason. Her comments build up in my brain and I hate to admit it, most of the scars on my arms were because some nights I couldn’t handle being told I’m not wanted alive. I’ve only used my arm for attempts.