I’m working on my safety plan, and I’ve noticed that most templates have a section called “reasons to live”. I’ve come up with a few compelling reasons that resonate with non-depressed me, but I’m having doubts that these would be persuasive if I’m already so far gone as to be considering suicide. Also, because I’m sharing this document with some key loved ones, I don’t want to make them feel bad that they aren’t listed as a reason. (The reason they aren’t listed is because I know they’re wonderful, strong people, and in the past depressed-me has always rationalized any sadness I would cause them away by being confident that they would grow from the experience and come out just fine. Also, there’s the bit about feeling like a burden to them, and that classic depressed mindset: “They’ll be better off without me anyway.”)
Those of you who have used a safety plan while severely depressed, did you find your written “reasons to live” to be helpful, further polarizing, or just neutral overall?