I have felt from a young age, that I have been discouraged from showing anger. Every time I did I would get smacked down (metaphorically) for doing so.
If I got into an argument the other person would just out-yell me.
If I expressed resentment, disappointment, “anger” people older than me would tell me about how totally unacceptable my behavior was.
I always found it odd how some people are allowed to throw these tantrums and get away with them, but if I act mildly annoyed I’m told;
“Your behavior is unacceptable.” “You need to act your age.” “Stop acting like your *insert young age*”
Long story short, I’ve been told/made to repress my anger for basically my entire life, and now I have no idea how to approach it from a healthy point of view. I always feel like I’m a pot of boiling water with a lid on it, where the anger is seeping out, and I’m heading towards a melt down.
I would like advice please.