I’m a mum. I’ve always had mental health issues since was younger but no one ever believed me. Thought I was attention seeking.
Over the last year I’m getting worse. I can’t sleep. I hear things. Don’t want to leave the house and when I have to it’s a mission to get ready. I have no urge to do anything but drink. All I want is to drink. But an incident happened Tuesday where now I am going to stay sober.
I could have a conversation with someone and not remember anything that was said. I used to be a clean freak never stop cleaning and now be lucky if I did. once a week. My kids are happy and healthy I don’t show them the way I am.
But I’ve reached out to family who just tells me to go out a walk and I’ll be ok. I’ve been to the doctors before but that wasn’t much good. When I do drink I have all the pills gathered in front of me but I don’t take them. I don’t want my kids to find me in that way.
I’m alone and I’m scared to talk to anyone now. I’m going to make another doctor appointment for next week but they will prob brush me off yet again. I don’t drive so it’s hard for me to get to any kind of support groups as I’m in a tiny village. Everything like that is half hour at least away.
Just wanted to get out there and hoping maybe some advice on what to do. Thanks.