Diagnosis: Depression and anxiety
I am too honest for my own good. Everytime a friend asks me how I am doing, I tell them I am not coping and start giving them details of my mental health issues. I can virtually see the life drain from their faces as I elaborate on my troubles and insecurities. Eventually I ask them how they are doing, and they are so tired by then that they only muster up one “good thanks”.
I feel like I am burdening my friends with my troubles. I really wish I could put on a fake smile and say “good thanks” but I just can’t. Not only do I feel insincere but I also hate pretending that my life is perfect when it is nowhere near it. It is something that is beyond my control and happens automatically and goes on for too long before I realise what is happening. If I need help, I want to ask for help. But at this point I feel like I am just using all my friends as punching bags.
What is the right thing to do here? Should I tell my friends about my problems? Generally I do it only to vent, not look for solutions as I don’t see any. Or should I keep my feelings hidden so as to not ruin their vibe? A lot of them also tell me to think positively and stop focusing on the negatives.
Any and all comments are appreciated. TIA.