Hello! I’m 14 and live in Sweden. I want to talk about my mental health I guess? I don’t know.. Ask me questions, give me advice, anything..
I will try not to go into much detail here, but instead when I’m responding to comments.
Here’s a list of my psychological problems:
•When I’m writing something, let’s say this post, it slowly just becomes incoherent nonsense. I just loose focus completely. Same thing when speaking, but not as bad.
I have a really hard time doing even very small projects on my own, like writing this post. I’ve tried to write this many times but it never works.
Is it just me being very tired?
•I have been diagnosed with Asperger’s/ASD at BUP (basically just psychologists for kids and teens). The oversensitivity and communication problems make me tired and confused. Also I can’t see the whole picture of basically anything without extreme focus, I think it’s because I can’t filter out the details.
•At BUP I also got diagnosed with “särbegåvning” which means I’m smart. It measured 5 different things, one being how many things you can remember at once, that I was pretty bad at. My mom told me she had read that this combined with Asperger’s was difficult in school or something. That makes sense, knowing everything in school but not being able to show it is very annoying.
•I probably have some form of OCD. I like sorting things, spend like 5 minutes searching for spiders like I had arachnophobia whenever I use the toilet, and thoroughly clean the family computer when my younger brother has used it. But I barely care about my own hygiene for some reason…
•Depression. Yes I do know like all teenagers think they have depression and other stupid stuff…. I know that free online tests and strangers on discord are unreliable sources.. The psychologists didn’t seem to think there was a big enough possibly I had it either… I have pretty much all of the symptoms except for being suicidal. It started 4 years ago when I got new classmates so I didn’t know anyone, and a new terrible teacher, and I wasn’t diagnosed with ASD yet so that was a big problem. I got so tired that when I got home I would go directly to bed, sometimes even without taking off shoes and stuff. My parents would bring food directly to my room, which they still do. My younger brother was really annoying, he used a lot of body language, which was annoying because of ASD, picked his nose, lots of small stuff but extremely annoying for me. Turns out he also have ASD.. Being so tired and lazy could also be depression.
•Depersonalization I have all the symptoms and it can be caused by depression. My dad doesn’t think I have it.
•PTSD I don’t know what to write here
•The psychologists thought I might have ADHD, not much to say about it but I think everyone are more productive when they’ve been outside. That doesn’t mean I’m outside often.
Some much more farfetched things I probably don’t have:
•Bipolar •Psychosis •Carbon monoxide poisoning •being a psychopath •Multiple personality disorder •very bad whatever the thing connecting the two brain hemispheres is called
My parents and the doctor think to not be tired I should be outside more, and my parents also think I should use my phone less. When I don’t use my phone there’s no big difference, I’ve tried. I haven’t been without my phone for more than a week though, but that’s impossible.
I’ve tried to write stuff like this many times but every time I think it’s silly nonsense, which it ends up being, so I’d delete it. It feels like I can’t do anything about it. (No, you don’t have to point out that this is a sign of depression. Wait it is right?)
I think I’ve written enough now